:sigh:
i was a transferee then in HS when i met him,there's nothing special about him, a friend introduced him to me i thought he was annoying and he thougt i'm "tibo" because of my strong personality. i helped him when one of my suitors was planning to beat him outside the school but, when we became seatmates in junior years we became closer. i was his constant advicer i even helped him court one of my "barkada", i listened to his every problem. we talked almost everyday on the phone,we laughed together,i often beat him when he teased me, i transfered to another school in our senior years and he transfered to another school far away from manila, that time i thought the friendship would end between the 2 of us but, i was wrong even when we entered college and met different people we stiil managed to become friends. when i finally decided to use cellphone, my mom gave me the phone with a globe network and so i texted him because among all of my friends he was the only one using a globe sim i never thought that a simple text message would change everything we texted everyday,he saw the other side of me not the tough,strong, boyish girl he used to call "tibo" back in HS, when we saw each other in one event i realized that i'm in love with the guy i treated only as a friend, and he felt the same way too so he told it to me but, i lied to him i turned him down for a few months we didn't text each other until, one day he texted me again as if nothing happened, a few weeks of texting he confessed his love again and so i gave him so many conditions to comply with, and surprisingly he complied. i felt his love everyday,he traveled from his place to mine just to see me,he tried his best to be close to my friends, we had fights but, he always went on his way to fix things because, he knew how high my pride is, he was so sweet but, i was so cold, one day i realized that i'm afraid to loose him and so i left him just like that, no explanations, i left him with nothing but, a broken heart...but, i would like to believe that i left him for his own sake but, the truth of the matter is...i left him because, i was so scared that if i don't, sooner or later he will leave me. i made him believe i was not affected,i hurted him so much, he even tried to patch things up between the two of us for three times but, i refused him not because i don't want to but, because i thought that i decided to let go there's no turning back, i thought i'm fine until the day i realized he found someone new. i was hurt, but, what can i do i've already decided to let go of the man who loved me so much...how can i forget the man who have done nothing wrong to me...!!?? all my life i've never felt this way for anyone before,what hurts me more is that i can't express to anyone how i really feel...even to my friends...look what pride have done...

this story. . .confuses me??. . .

it sounds as if you love him (even now)
so if you do love him. . .

then why did you leave him??
so he wont get hurt??
so you wont lose him??

but by leaving him you did hurt him. . .and lose him

also I couldnt understand one of youre lines

"one day i realized that i'm afraid to LOOSE him and so i LEFT him just like that, no explanations" ??

ah if you were afraid to loose him??
then why did you leave him??. . .

looking on his side. . .
maybe he does still love you
but what you did to him. . .
must have left him devastated. . .
and so he found someone new. . .

and dont think that you cant tell anyone about how you feel

I mean everyone here at symbianize will listen to you :)

and help you in you're time of need. . .

you made the decision of leaving him. . .and on repeated accounts chose to reject his advances. . .

I mean you've decided that you dont want him back. . .
doing so many things. . .
so I guess you can "move on". . .
forget what happened. . .and move on. . .

but if you do need someone to talk to. . .
the symbianizers ears are open for listening ;)

this story. . .confuses me??. . .

it sounds as if you love him (even now)
so if you do love him. . .

then why did you leave him??
so he wont get hurt??
so you wont lose him??

but by leaving him you did hurt him. . .and lose him

also I couldnt understand one of youre lines

"one day i realized that i'm afraid to LOOSE him and so i LEFT him just like that, no explanations" ??

ah if you were afraid to loose him??
then why did you leave him??. . .

looking on his side. . .
maybe he does still love you
but what you did to him. . .
must have left him devastated. . .
and so he found someone new. . .

and dont think that you cant tell anyone about how you feel

I mean everyone here at symbianize will listen to you :)

and help you in you're time of need. . .

you made the decision of leaving him. . .and on repeated accounts chose to reject his advances. . .

I mean you've decided that you dont want him back. . .
doing so many things. . .
so I guess you can "move on". . .
forget what happened. . .and move on. . .

but if you do need someone to talk to. . .
the symbianizers ears are open for listening ;)

even i, don't understand that!..i don't wanna loose him so i left him,i just thought that the pain would be lesser if i was the one who'll left him rather than him leaving me..i don't know maybe it was pride, i don't want to be the one being left behind...i didn't take him back when he tried to, because, i'm not used to changing decisions that i've made, so i told him that i'm happy now, look what pride have done !....people thought i'm strong,they admire me for my strenght in facing things,of course i'll move on...my life doesn't stop here...but, before that, just wanna express what i really feel inside,that's why i joined here because, in here i can express how i really feel without thinking of what others would be thinking about me, because the fact still remains that it's just on line...

teka muna...sandali lang....may nakalimutan ka, diba pwede mo 'kong iyakan? :buddy:

things change. and sometimes, people go along with it. if you really believed in the idea na "mas makakabuti yung iwanan ko sya" noon, then why regret now? you made your decision, you made your move. as sad as it is, nangyari na. it's only up to you kung ano yung susunod mong gagawin. you can either cry there in your tiny little corner and regret about what you did, or you can go outside and meet new people, make friends...and be happy. :yes:

we all know that though it may sound that simple, mahirap talaga. kaya nga andito ang buong pwersa ng SYMBIANIZE, para makinig sayo at maging sandalan mo. :salute:

sige lang, iiyak mo lang yan. andito kami para punasan ang luha mo.:buddy:

ah pride. . .

okay. . .

pero tulad din ng sinabi ni paps icon :clap:
hehe

ahm
kung dati. . .

napauna mo yung pride mo. . .
then dapat ngayon hindi parin magpapalit yun. . .

I mean bakit ngayon ka lang nagsisisi??. . .
diba??. . .

dapat hindi ka na nagsisisi sa decision mo. . .

as everyone will tell you "just move on" "forget him" "find someone else"

dont worry. . .
in time. . .mangyayari din yun
na makakalimutan mo siya. . .
and makakahanap ka ng bago. . .

but you have to start with youreself. . .
ilagay mo na kaagad sa isip mo na. . .

you want this "change" to happen. . .

if you need someone to talk to. . .
my ears are open. . .:)

and sabi nga din ni paps icon :clap:
pwede mo siyang iyakan oh. . .


it doesnt hurt to smile you know :)

but I hope. . .you make the right decision. . .:)

"letting go is like gettin' a tooth pulled out by a dentist. pull it out, you're relieved. but how many times does your tongue run itself over the spot where the tooth once was? probably a hundred times a day. just because it wasn't hurting you, doesn't mean you don't notice it. it leaves a gap & sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. it's goin' to take a while, but it takes time.

should you have kept the tooth? no, 'coz it was causing you so much pain.."

ganun talaga eh, nasa huli ang pagsisisi. pero sa nakikita ko, di mo dapat gawin yun. sayang lang ang oras at luha mo sa pagsisisi. here's one thing na dapat mong gawin about the past: learn from it. :yes:

i will move on...time heals all wounds...i guess!it feels great that for once i took the mask off and release everything i feel inside...!thanks for your time!

i will move on...time heals all wounds...i guess!it feels great that for once i took the mask off and release everything i feel inside...!thanks for your time!

no probs. . .

goodluck. . .

wala na aqng maisip sabihn, "goodluck" lang pumasok sa isip ko, hope na inspirational parin yun :)

hehe

kaw naman papi parang sinasabi mo na nasa bitid na ng kamatayan si Lp. :punish: hehehe :peace:

Lp, kaya mo yan. kung sakali kelangan mo ng kausap, andito lang kami. :yes:

at syempre, wag kakalimutan, :pray: He's up there to listen to you.

kaw naman papi parang sinasabi mo na nasa bitid na ng kamatayan si Lp. :punish: hehehe :peace:

Lp, kaya mo yan. kung sakali kelangan mo ng kausap, andito lang kami. :yes:

at syempre, wag kakalimutan, :pray: He's up there to listen to you.

wwwaaahhh hindi ha. . .:ohno:

ganun ba lumabas yung mga sinasabi ko??


hehehe di ko sinasadya. . . :D

wwwaaahhh hindi ha. . .:ohno:

ganun ba lumabas yung mga sinasabi ko??


hehehe di ko sinasadya. . . :D
thanks a inyo, d nmn ak mag suicide...nsktan lng ak tpos naun ng buzz p ung ex k skin hngan daw b k ng advice about her girl...shucks cnsdya b ito...thaks ulit

gusto nyang makita ano magiging reaction mo. nasa sayo yan, pwede mong ipakita na affected ka by not replying to him or pwede mong simulan ang pag move on mo by talkin to him like nothin happened between the two of you. :yes:

tsk tsk tsk. . .

natatamaan kaba dun sa sinabi niya? :p. . .


. . .eh kasi si paps icon. . .
pinagalitan ako kasi parang daw nasa ahm "bingit ng kamatayan" ikaw. . .:peace:

dahil dun sa sinasabi ko. . .heehee :D

gusto nyang makita ano magiging reaction mo. nasa sayo yan, pwede mong ipakita na affected ka by not replying to him or pwede mong simulan ang pag move on mo by talkin to him like nothin happened between the two of you. :yes:


xiempre as usual ngreply ak, i'm a clown infront of other people.. face to face p un!..so it's easier to reply if s chat lng like now..ask p rin xia s chat...and he keeps on telling me how he loves the girl..it hurts..but, i have to let go and let him be happy..with the girl who can show him how she loves her..!i know that.... but, i can't deny the fact that it still hurts..!

tsk tsk tsk. . .

natatamaan kaba dun sa sinabi niya? :p. . .


. . .eh kasi si paps icon. . .
pinagalitan ako kasi parang daw nasa ahm "bingit ng kamatayan" ikaw. . .:peace:

dahil dun sa sinasabi ko. . .heehee :D
i'm so happy that even s computer lng ngppka22o k, here i can say that hey..i'm also human nssktan dn...unlike, s personal...thanks!

i'm so happy that even s computer lng ngppka22o k, here i can say that hey..i'm also human nssktan dn...unlike, s personal...thanks!

pwede mo din naman gawin sa personal yun ha. . .

"be you're self"

or something like that :D. . .

it's good to hear na you're happy dahil sa kalokohan na nagagawa ko. . .:)

pwede mo din naman gawin sa personal yun ha. . .

"be you're self"

or something like that :D. . .

it's good to hear na you're happy dahil sa kalokohan na nagagawa ko. . .:)
i can't..kze i have 2 sides the strong side and the weak side....and strong side lng ang lgi nla nkkta..yah i'm happy atleast someone is sparing me a minute...thanks

i can't..kze i have 2 sides the strong side and the weak side....and strong side lng ang lgi nla nkkta..yah i'm happy atleast someone is sparing me a minute...thanks

:yipee:. . .

no prob. . .like I said. . .my ears are open for listening. . .:)

hhhmmm. . .then maybe it's time you find someone. . .
who can see both sides. . .

and/or who accepts and appreciates you for both sides that you show to him/her. . .

it also makes moving on. . .
a bit easier. . .

:yipee:. . .

no prob. . .like I said. . .my ears are open for listening. . .:)

hhhmmm. . .then maybe it's time you find someone. . .
who can see both sides. . .

and/or who accepts and appreciates you for both sides that you show to him/her. . .

it also makes moving on. . .
a bit easier. . .


perhaps youre right...but, it's hard..because,intentionally i am showing other people only the strong side of me..

it's like building a wall, so that only few could enter..lesser chances of getting close to people and lesser chances to be left behind...i'm just so scared to be left alone...so before they do that i'll leave them...so i only have few friends...

perhaps youre right...but, it's hard..because,intentionally i am showing other people only the strong side of me..

it's like building a wall, so that only few could enter..lesser chances of getting close to people and lesser chances to be left behind...i'm just so scared to be left alone...so before they do that i'll leave them...so i only have few friends...

. . .hhhmmm yeah that does seem hard. . .

then try to show you're weak side for once. . .
well actually they wont think of it as a "weak" side. . .

but it wont hurt to say what you feel once in awhile. . .
dont carry the burden all by youreself. . .

there's always that one friend. . .
whom you can talk to. . .about anything. . .

the trick is figuring who that friend is. . .

and dont think that showing "emotions" is a weak trait. . .

some even see it as a stronger trait than being emotionless. . .

dont be afraid to be left alone. . .
cause of they are you're real friends. . .
then they wont leave you no matter what happens. . .

not everyone is gonna stay with you. . .
but not everyone is gonna leave you. . .

:)

. . .hhhmmm yeah that does seem hard. . .

then try to show you're weak side for once. . .
well actually they wont think of it as a "weak" side. . .

but it wont hurt to say what you feel once in awhile. . .
dont carry the burden all by youreself. . .

there's always that one friend. . .
whom you can talk to. . .about anything. . .

the trick is figuring who that friend is. . .

and dont think that showing "emotions" is a weak trait. . .

some even see it as a stronger trait than being emotionless. . .

dont be afraid to be left alone. . .
cause of they are you're real friends. . .
then they wont leave you no matter what happens. . .

not everyone is gonna stay with you. . .
but not everyone is gonna leave you. . .

:)

i don't know...maybe in time..i guess it's a process..i'm just thankful i found a site like this...it really helps me a lot...with the things i'm going through right now...:)

@lonely princess...

ayos lang yan..continue being a :csa: at sasaya ka...:giggle:

nalagpasan ko na rin yan...:D even if I'm only 14...masasabi ko lang...aja!

ahhh kaya pla boring:giggle:

i don't know...maybe in time..i guess it's a process..i'm just thankful i found a site like this...it really helps me a lot...with the things i'm going through right now...:)

yup......in symbianize, people are welling to help you to move on, and to heal your wounded heart....just keep sharing.... and enjoy...:lol::thumbsup::salute: