i am so damn stupid… I know I’m not a perfect person but I have the control of all the decisions I made in my life…i can’t blame anyone for all the mistakes I’ve done because nobody compel me to do such thing… all my slipup!!!


Do other people know me well? Besides being a good friend to them in good times and bad….do they know my worth? Some do know but most of them not…I am a very perceptive person…further being around with people, I do observe their strong and weakest point…


some proven to just be there if they only needed you… they only remember to text, call or chat with me if they needed my help…after that even I do text them just to say hi and hello… no reply at all!!!




Maybe my prevalent mistake in life is to let people penetrate into my life so easily… to be touch by a simple caring and “love” (which some are not). Some have their own unseen agenda why they are being so nice to me…




Mistakes maybe were not committed to regret but to learn!!! We need to get saddened and be a failure just to apprehend that it’s not all worth it…. I learned recently that not all of the sweet words people will tell you are true… they don’t really mean it.




Now I can’t stop thinking…do I really discern this person base on what he/she said to me? Does he/she really is a good friend? What if you really trust the person but in the end it will be your lost and consider one of your biggest mistakes… what if your conception of that person as one of your trusted and closes friend but you found out you are just nobody… ouch that really hurts!!!!




Well it’s not all sufferings coz now I have my true friends on my side… not all of them are users!!! That is the benefit of trials in our life… to know the people around you!!!