How many times do I have to overcome this fear?
This feeling which overshadows my faith…
Overpowers my self-esteem,
It keeps me from getting rough at myself…

Afraid of having to go through the same mistake.
Not liking the fact that I might be the victim again.
Sometimes I wish that it just didn’t happen…
Trying to diminish the dark thoughts it brings inside.

Through these thoughts of much weary,
As I struggle to survive and anchor my way out,
Over and over again I always loose myself this battle,
To get firm and protect myself from so much pain.

I always run for cover.
I let my tears wash away the hurting,
I’ll bury those wasted times,
Then, I’ll follow the rapids of a brighter life…

My fear of loosing YOU…
Living those memories behind,
Walking alone on rough roads,
Erasing those fears as I open new doors…

:sigh: even "maturity" cannot defeat that feeling..
coz most of the time that fear sneak like a thief in the night when you're not aware and unarmed.. :sigh:

Afraid of having to go through the same mistake.
Not liking the fact that I might be the victim again.
Sometimes I wish that it just didn’t happen…
Trying to diminish the dark thoughts it brings inside.

I always run for cover.
I let my tears wash away the hurting,
I’ll bury those wasted times,
Then, I’ll follow the rapids of a brighter life…


:sigh: sakit naman nito pek.. :sigh: parang damang-dama ko 'to :sigh:

:sigh: we sometimes realize that we can be HURT just by missing someone...:weep:
we feel more the burden when losing someone special to us..:sigh:

:sigh: sakit naman nito pek.. :sigh: parang damang-dama ko 'to :sigh:

sakit talaga pek :weep: damang dama ko xa ngaun. :sigh:

bakit ganun?ung akala mo magiging ok na ang lahat at sasaya ka na kasi bumalik na xa sa buhay mo pero tingin mo may kulang pa rin.

hirap talaga pag nawala ung trust sa isang relationship.

now, i'm suffering from heartaches...fear of loosing him coz i'm not sure and it's impossible na di masktan ulet.pero siguro it's time to let go.to start all over again without him and start a new life with someone else... :weep:

sakit talaga pek :weep: damang dama ko xa ngaun. :sigh:

bakit ganun?ung akala mo magiging ok na ang lahat at sasaya ka na kasi bumalik na xa sa buhay mo pero tingin mo may kulang pa rin.

hirap talaga pag nawala ung trust sa isang relationship.

now, i'm suffering from heartaches...fear of loosing him coz i'm not sure and it's impossible na di masktan ulet.pero siguro it's time to let go.to start all over again without him and start a new life with someone else... :weep:

:comfort: huwag ka na :weep: tita mhy k0 :smack:

dit0 kami nila mame :D para :happy: ka lagi :smack:

wubshu tita :kiss:

:sigh: we sometimes realize that we can be HURT just by missing someone...:weep:
we feel more the burden when losing someone special to us..:sigh:


ikaw ba yan boysie :what:

mareng mhy life must go on... lessons are learned... and everything happen for a reason.. :kiss:

:sigh: tama sila mare, pek... being miserable is your choice. everything goes down to what you want to do. if you choose to wait, go. you know the consequences of it all. in fact, you're too admirable by waiting that long. but again, it's your choice. :comfort:

heartaches may be the most painful thing in this world, it may even leave you crying in the middle of the night, :cry: but always remember that after it all, you will emerge as a stronger and better person. :thumbsup:

:sigh: tama sila mare, pek... being miserable is your choice. everything goes down to what you want to do. if you choose to wait, go. you know the consequences of it all. in fact, you're too admirable by waiting that long. but again, it's your choice. :comfort:

heartaches may be the most painful thing in this world, it may even leave you crying in the middle of the night, :cry: but always remember that after it all, you will emerge as a stronger and better person. :thumbsup:

tama kaung lahat pek. pero I'm still waiting...ganun ako katanga at katyaga.kasi baka pag sisihan ko na di ko xa binigyan ng time na magpaliwanag.:weep:

mahirap pero dapat akong maghintay.kahit sinasabi na ng iba na wag na dahil masyado na ko nasasaktan willing pa rin ako maghintay. :sigh:

katangahan ba un?:weep:

tama kaung lahat pek. pero I'm still waiting...ganun ako katanga at katyaga.kasi baka pag sisihan ko na di ko xa binigyan ng time na magpaliwanag.:weep:

mahirap pero dapat akong maghintay.kahit sinasabi na ng iba na wag na dahil masyado na ko nasasaktan willing pa rin ako maghintay. :sigh:

katangahan ba un?:weep:

:comfort: again pek, it is your choice to wait. we cannot judge you because of that kasi ikaw naman ang gf. you're choosing to wait because you love him and you want to do everything that you know you can to make things work. sadly, that's not what he is doing. but then, like what i have said before sayo, if you want to do it, go. at least you will never have regrets for the rest of your life. that way, you know na up to the last ounce of effort, ginawa mo. wala kang ikakahiya kung sakali man magkita kayo uli. wala syang masasabi sayo and you could face him with your head up high. you should be proud of yourself for your strength and your capacity to love deeply and unconditionally. :approve: :smack:

Hindi katangahan yun na naghihintay ka for him. Dapat nga na i-praise ka pa na willing ka maghintay for a chance na pwede nyo maayos ulit ang relationship nyo . Nobody has the right to judge you at decision mo naman yan. Tulad ng sabi ni Midori, at least alang kang regrets in the end di ba. Ang swerte ng guy to have someone like you. Basta support ka namin kung ano man ang decision mo.

Hindi katangahan yun na naghihintay ka for him. Dapat nga na i-praise ka pa na willing ka maghintay for a chance na pwede nyo maayos ulit ang relationship nyo . Nobody has the right to judge you at decision mo naman yan. Tulad ng sabi ni Midori, at least alang kang regrets in the end di ba. Ang swerte ng guy to have someone like you. Basta support ka namin kung ano man ang decision mo.


:thanks: kuya eli.that's the reason why I am very confused coz I'm willing to wait kahit gaano katagal pero at the back of my mind parang gusto ko na sumuko kasi obvious naman na wala na ko halaga sa knya.kaw ba naman ang di itxt ng bf mo ng 4 months ng wala kang ginagawang mali.yah I admit na it was my fault before pero lahat ginagawa ko just to save our relationship.kahit sa mga friends kong guy di na ko lumalabas ksama sila kasi baka paghinalaan pa.pero ewan ko bakit ganun xa.respeto lang naman sana at isipin din nya na gf nya ko at hindi kung sino man.I deserv some respect naman di ba?pero may time frame na ko 6 months is enough to wait.If after 6 months at wala pa rin syang txt siguro that's the time na kelangan ko na nagdecide.kelangan ko na siguro magmove on at that time. :weep:

Bsta hanggang kelan mo gusto maghintay then go for it. Kahit 6 mos or more pa yan till dumating yung time na ready ka na mag move on. Whatever happens at least no regrets. Nandito lang kami :comfort:

"The value of waiting is a value of a lifetime. If we know how to wait, life shall be easy because GOD knows what to give us at the right time...." :)

makabagbag damdamin na tula galing kay mylene :salute:

:thumbsup: ako sayo my ayos na ayos;;;:salute: