Iyay
22nd Jul '08 Tue, 21:44
Not all people who smile are fine. Not all people who cry are sad. Not all people show what they really feel inside. How did I know this? Because I was once one of them: one of the fakers, one of those faking it.
Everyday at least one person asks me how I’m doing. I always receive text messages such as “muztah?”, “how are you na?” or “are you okay?”. My instant reply is always “okidokie lang” or “ayos lang or sometimes when I feel like annoying someone, I say, “maganda pa rin”. But the truth is I’m not always okay. I’m not always “ayos”. I’m not always “maganda” (besides, no one has ever seriously told me I’m pretty).
I sometimes fake what I really feel. The main reason is maybe because I don’t want other people to get involved with the problems I have. I can face them on my own. I don’t want them asking me what happened and what caused it to happen. I don’t want repeating the same story again and again. Big mistake.
I always thought that keeping my problems on my own is the best thing to do, but I proved myself wrong when I once decided to share my feelings with someone. I opened up to her. I cried my heart out. I released all the heartaches I’ve kept for so long. After that, I didn’t believe it, I didn’t expect it to happen but it did! It felt good. I felt better. I felt like as if I’m a new person.
I regret that it took so many years for me to realize that. If only I’ve known this from the start, I wouldn’t have cried myself to sleep for a hundred times. I wouldn’t have carried the burden my emotions had given me. If only. If only.
I’m not telling you to open up to everyone. You have to be careful with whom you share your feelings. I admit it. Sometimes I still fake what I really feel when I can’t find someone I trust. You know what I just do? I go to a quiet room and pour all my feelings out to Him. I open up to Him who knows me, to Him who truly loves me, to Him who understands me. You know what? I find doing this more comforting. Knowing that my Savior is always there to listen and to help makes me feel better than hearing a hundred people say that everything’s gonna be all right.
And, oh, one thing more, you should also learn to see what a person really feels. Sometimes a person is just shy to come up to you and open up, but when you show that you do care, he will eventually give-in. You have to make the first move. Show that you care; show that he isn’t alone.
Sometimes, we have to dig deeper someone’s heart to be able to see what it really contains. We have to see something bigger than the smile painted on that person’s face. We have to understand that not all the things shown outside really reflect the person inside. So the next time your friend tells you he is okay, do him a favor, and look deep inside of him. Maybe he is just waiting for you to come up and say, “friend, ayos ka lang ba talaga? Mga sinungaling pumupunta sa impyerno.”
>wrote this when I was in my second year in high school. Pagpasensiyahan niyo na lang po. :noidea:
Everyday at least one person asks me how I’m doing. I always receive text messages such as “muztah?”, “how are you na?” or “are you okay?”. My instant reply is always “okidokie lang” or “ayos lang or sometimes when I feel like annoying someone, I say, “maganda pa rin”. But the truth is I’m not always okay. I’m not always “ayos”. I’m not always “maganda” (besides, no one has ever seriously told me I’m pretty).
I sometimes fake what I really feel. The main reason is maybe because I don’t want other people to get involved with the problems I have. I can face them on my own. I don’t want them asking me what happened and what caused it to happen. I don’t want repeating the same story again and again. Big mistake.
I always thought that keeping my problems on my own is the best thing to do, but I proved myself wrong when I once decided to share my feelings with someone. I opened up to her. I cried my heart out. I released all the heartaches I’ve kept for so long. After that, I didn’t believe it, I didn’t expect it to happen but it did! It felt good. I felt better. I felt like as if I’m a new person.
I regret that it took so many years for me to realize that. If only I’ve known this from the start, I wouldn’t have cried myself to sleep for a hundred times. I wouldn’t have carried the burden my emotions had given me. If only. If only.
I’m not telling you to open up to everyone. You have to be careful with whom you share your feelings. I admit it. Sometimes I still fake what I really feel when I can’t find someone I trust. You know what I just do? I go to a quiet room and pour all my feelings out to Him. I open up to Him who knows me, to Him who truly loves me, to Him who understands me. You know what? I find doing this more comforting. Knowing that my Savior is always there to listen and to help makes me feel better than hearing a hundred people say that everything’s gonna be all right.
And, oh, one thing more, you should also learn to see what a person really feels. Sometimes a person is just shy to come up to you and open up, but when you show that you do care, he will eventually give-in. You have to make the first move. Show that you care; show that he isn’t alone.
Sometimes, we have to dig deeper someone’s heart to be able to see what it really contains. We have to see something bigger than the smile painted on that person’s face. We have to understand that not all the things shown outside really reflect the person inside. So the next time your friend tells you he is okay, do him a favor, and look deep inside of him. Maybe he is just waiting for you to come up and say, “friend, ayos ka lang ba talaga? Mga sinungaling pumupunta sa impyerno.”
>wrote this when I was in my second year in high school. Pagpasensiyahan niyo na lang po. :noidea: