She was my best friend and I have known her since we were small.
She knew all my secrets, which reveals my feelings for her, that I love her not only because she's pretty and smart but also the way she laughs at everything and the way she sees life and love.
I could still remember the first time we met, I was five years old then.
It was one windy afternoon having no one to play with except for my bestfriend,Troy.He and his family just moved out to transfer at a neighboring state because his father got promoted. And so I climbed up our tree house, I saw a moving truck coming down the street. I watched it approaching and noticed a family station wagon following it. It stopped in front of the house and out came a family. I was about to glance away when out came the loveliest girl I've seen. She was four years old that time but then even at an early age she was a beauty. She had long curly hair, which reached almost to her waist. She had fair complexion and eyes which could make a man lose his heart into them. I continued to watch her when
suddenly she looked up and saw me watching them in the tree house window.
I was about to duck when she smiled and waved her hand. I waved back then watched in amazement as I saw her running towards the tree house.
So I went to the edge of the ladder and said, "Would you like to come up?"she answered, "May I?" So I help her climb up and when she reached the top she then turned to me and said,"By the way, my name's Sam,what's yours?" I answered, " My name is Christopher but then you can call me Chris." She smiled and said, " Well i like your name. Hey your tree house's neat!" then I replied, " Thanks! troy and I made this. this
used to be our hide out. We used to goof around, play ball and go biking together. He was my best friend and I kind of miss him you know." She smiled and said "I'm here now, we could do things you do with troy and
I could be your new best friend too. i never had a boy for a friend before so it could be exciting to have one. I could learn how to play ball and I have my bicycle so we could go biking together. Now how does that sound to you?" I smiled and said, "Well that sounds good enough."
Then she held her hand and said,"It's a deal then!" So that's how it started.

So we became best friends and it was kind of strange at first for she was a girl and there are things which I was little bit hesitant to indulge her like catching frogs, swimming in the lake and climbing trees, but then she tried and did everything just to please me.
Therewas even a time when she fell off the bike trying to catch up with me in a race we had and I was the one who bandaged her scraped knee. I
could still remember the time when she hit the window of our
neighbor when we were playing baseball and it was i who talked to Mr. Chambers and promised to pay for the damage, which meant having to loose a weeks's allowance. I remembered the time when I fell off the tree when I tried to rescue a little kitten because Sam was near to tears when she saw the helpless kitten trapped in a branch. I even fought with the tough guy when hey teased Sam and made her cry and I ended up having a black eye and a bruised cheek. I remember Sam crying as she placed an ice bag over the damaged eye and later gave it a get-well kiss. I did everything to please her and gave everything her little heart desires.

The lake was our favorite hang out. We had our Saturday swim routine.
We would pack food and later eat them under the big oak tree.
There was a special branch in which the two of us could sit together and tell each other's dreams. She dreams of being a Ballerina and she knows my dream of becoming a doctor. She never laughs at my dreams and pursuits even if they were quite impossible. it made me like her even more.

As years went by, I noticed that my feelings towards her were slowly changing. Somehow, I thought it was just a simple crush case.
But when I started thinking about her at night, dreaming of her and having the feeling of wanting to be with her all the time, I thought it was
something different, something that made me feel strange, but then
it was exhilarating feeling. It made me feel so alive. Whenever our
hands touch, I could feel the tingling sensation in my spine. Once when we
were at the lake having our Saturday swim routine and as I carried her
towards the water edge, I had the feeling of not wanting to let go.
I just wanted that moment to continue hoping it would never end. I
then realized I was slowly falling in love with my best friend.

Many times I tried to deny the feeling for I was scared to imagine
what would happen if ever I'd try to tell her how I feel about her. I
was scared because she might think that I'm taking advantage of her
and our friendship. I was afraid of losing her so I just kept my feeling hidden.
We reached the age of fifteen and I noticed that Sam grew lovelier each
day. How my heart aches wherever I see boys glance her way. I want
to punch their noses as I watch them talking to her giving
compliments, flowers and chocolates. There were times when I watch her at a
distance mixed feelings of anger and hurt because it hurts so much to know
that there were so many things I wanted to tell her but then I could
not do so. There were so many presents which I long to give her but then I could
not for she might see me only as a friend. I was also scared of
letting her know how I feel about her as much as losing her.

Then one day, I just learned from a friend that she already had a
boyfriend. At first, I tried to convince myself that it was just a rumor.
Her boyfriend was Mark, a popular senior, who was the heartthrob of
the campus. She, being the cheerleader was close to the basketball team which
Mark was the captain. When I saw them walking together at the parking lot
that afternoon, I watched her with my heart slowly breaking into pieces.
I saw her wave at me but I just pretended not to see her for I was
scared that she might see in my eyes the pain I'm feeling inside
because of seeing her with another guy.

Those days that followed where the saddest days of my life. How my
heart aches when I see her walk by me with him at her side. every time
we meet in hallways and I see him around her, there's a feeling inside me
that makes me want to grab her away from him. How it hurts to see the girl
I long possess was now owned by somebody else. That special smile I
long for her to cast on me was now casted on him as she passes by me
she doesnt know that i whispher the words "God how I love you."

Then one faithful day they broke up. She came too me that evening crying
on my shoulder. They had a big fight and it ended up to their break up.
Mixed feelings were scaring me inside. I was happy because she was
free and maybe i would have the chance of telling her my true feelings for
her but then I was feeling so bad because she is crying her heart
out just for him. At that time, I was not quite sure of what I wanted to do.
So we found ourselves doing what we did in old days with our
Saturday swim routine, spending time in our tree house. we still
enjoyed doing childish pranks for we still are both young at heart.

So many chances I had for me to confess my feelings for her but still
I couldn't bring myself to her for I was scared of losing her once more.
I once lost her, now I could not bear of losing her again by telling her
I love her. So I just kept my feelings even if it was bursting to be
expressed from my aching heart.


It was a week from our JS Prom, we were seated at the branch of an oak
tree drying ourselves after our afternoon swim when she said, "I
was wondering Chris if you would like to be my partner?" It just got out of
my wits for it was like a dream I never thought would happen. It took
me awhile to answer her, "I thought there are so many boys who
would die for you to be their partner?" So she turned away and quietly said,
"Well i just thought I would like to spend that night with my
best friend." Then she continued in a whisper I could barely
hear, "Don't you want to die just like them to be my partner
Chris?" I was too stunned to speak for it came close for me to
blurt my feelings for her. We we're silent for a while until I
finally whispered, "I would be happy to be your partner Sam."
The she smiled and suddenly kissed
my cheek. I could hardly contain the joy i felt that time. I saw her
turned red and bowed her head. Suddenly she stood up and run
towards the water saying, "Last one to reach the water treats to sundae fudge!"
I ran slowed up so that i would lose which meant having to have
her with me for another three hours or more.

Our Prom night came. I bought a new tuxedo and poured almost
the entire bottle of perfume. I went to fetch Sam. Sam's mother
greeted me and I went to sit in the living room waiting for her to
come down. I was
talking to her father when I heard her say, "How do I look?" I look
up and saw her lovelier than ever in a strapless white dress with her
hair flowing around her face. I tood up and opened my mouth but found out
I could not find my voice. Then I got her hand shakily fastened the
corsage around her wrist and whispered, "To the loveliest girl in
the whole world." She then asked, " Is that true?" I nodded and
she smiled and I smiled back then I turned to open the door for her.

When we arrived at the gymnasium we hardly recognized our classmates.
Gone were the jeans and T-shirts. They were replaced with tuxedos
and gowns. Then I held out her hand bowed and said ," Would you give
me the honor of your first dance?" She laughed and curtseyed. Then I
led her to the dance floor. It was like a dream coming true, a moment
of enchantment. I was there dancing with the only girl I ever
loved. She was smiling up to me,
as we were slowly moving in a smooth
gliding motion. I found myself lost as I stared down to her sparkling eyes.
The curls of her long hair were like waves enhancing her
beautiful face. There were so many things I wanted to tell her
that moment. I wanted to tell that she was the most beautiful girl
that night. I wanted
to tell her that she would always be the beacon of light in my darkness,
but what I wanted to tell her the most was that I love her. I drew
up all my courage and bent to whisper it in her ear but suddenly the music
stopped and the magic was gone. I came close to telling her, but
still haven't done it.

We walked towards the table and found ourselves surrounded by friends.

asked her if she wanted a drink, she nodded and so I went to get one.
It took me a long time to get one and when I returned to our table,
she was gone. I asked her friend, katie, where she was but she told me that
she doesn't know. So I went and search for her.

As I was searching for her, I reached the garden. There I saw two
silhoutte figures outlined by the moon's silvery light. They were
so close to each other. i could never describe the feeling I had
when I recognized the white dress Sam was wearing that night. I just
turned and left the gymnasium.

Since that night, I avoided her. Many times she tried talking to me but
I never gave her the chance to do so. I was afraid to hear her say that
she loves Mark and not me. I would rather have left in ignorance of her
true feelings for me than to hear from those dreaded words and feel
my hope crush and my heart break. I didn't return her calls. I would
not see her if she comes into our house. in the hallways, as she approaches
I would go to another direction. It also hurts to do those things but then
I thought that was the best way to forget her. Those months were
tormenting but still I kept my pride.

The day of our graduation came. I was planning to take up medicine at
a neighboring state and was to move out the next day. As the program
ended, she approached me and handed me a rose. As she stared at me.
there was something in her eyes I couldn't describe. There was sadness in
them and when she smiled it wasn't the same smile she had. I wanted
to hug her at that moment, tell her that I love her but then she
turned and walked away from me.

So I moved out the next day as I planned. Luckily, I was accepted
at the university. I concentrated with my studies but still I think of
her at night. I was always wondering if she thinks of me too. I tried
hard not
to think of her but still I could not stop myself from loving her.
Each achievement I have was done for her. I thought that if I will be
successful one day, I would be able to tell her that I love her
and by that time, I'm worthy of having her. It was a year after
our graduation when I decided to return home and see her again. I thought
a year is too much for me not to see her and during the past year I
felt like a person lost in the desert and only the sight of her could
quench the thirst I have inside. As I got off the plane, I went home
directly, desperate to get to her house desperate to see her,
to hug
her. Then I would tell her that I missed her and that I have
loved her for a long time. This time I am determined to let her
know my true
feelings for her and I could not contain anymore the love I have for her.
I reached their house, I saw her older sister and I approached her.
I smiled at her but I noticed she didn't smile back. I was confused for
she used to be a cheerful lasy just like my dear Sam. I then asked,"
Hi Jen! I guess you're suprised why I'm here. Well I just want to
visit you and I was also hoping to see Sam. I kind of miss her you
know. Ummm.........bby the way have you seen her?" All I saw was
sadness in her eyes as she replied quietly, "Come follow me."

I was confused with the way she's acting but still i followed her.
As we were walking, I was trying to indulge her in a conversation
but just answered my questiond briefly. Then I realized that she was leading
me to the direction of the lake. It was still the same as I left
it, with the same oak tree Sam and I used to climb up. I smiled
upon remembering the kiss Sam gave me when I agreed to be her
partner. It's been one of the happiest days in my life and I
realized that I missed Sam more than I thought. The Jen stopped
walking and pointed to the tree. She then whispered, "There's Sam."

I looked at where she was pointing and saw a newly dug tomb with
the name of the girl I ever loved. I could not believe at what I saw and
desperately tried convincing myself that this is all just a
nightmare and I would soon wake up.

I stared at Jenny in disbelief with her eyes searching for
explanations and slowly started saying," It has been a week since
she died. She died of Leukemia, but eventhough she was sick, she
never stopped thinking about you. It was even your name she uttered
before she died. She asked us to bury her here for she always regard this
place as a place of LOVE. She said that this is where she had spent the
happiest days and that was when she was with you. by the way,
she also asked me to give you this." She handed me a parcel and with that she left.
I slowly opened the parcel and saw that it contained the dried orchid
from the corsage I gave her for our prom. Then at the bottom I
saw a letter. It was dated las month. I opened it with shaking hands
and started reading........

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I know by this time you read this letter I'm gone. I just want to
tell you that I feel very lucky and thankful to God that I had a friend
like you. I would also like you to know that I had left something
inside, something I kept from you all these years. I love you Chris,
not in a friendly way but as one who would feel like spending the rest
of my life with. I have always loved you even from the start. I guess it
just bloomed each day that's why the happiest days of my life was when
you were by my side. You just don't know how I dreamed of you
at night and wake up in the morning and dream no more for you are with me.
When you are away, I can't stop crying because I'm afraid to think
that you are with another girl. I just can't bear to see you
with another girl. I just want you all to myself. I may sound
selfish but that's how I feel. Each time you held me close to
you was like a dream coming true for to be close to you
and feel your heart beating
next to mine was heaven. So many things I did so that you will learn
to love me but I NEVER saw a hint. I did everything to please you
because I love you so much that I even tried to fool myself that
you're in love with me too. So many nights I've cried when I think
of myself unloved by you. Well you might think that what I'm sayin
are lies but, I tell you, my heart speaks the truth for I cannot
bear telling a lie to the one I love. I know you might be
thinking of Mark but I just did that to make you jealous, to
make you see me as a
young woman, capable of loving and not as the little girl you used to
play with. Sometimes I imagined that you were jealous and
fooled myself that it was a sign that you feel something for me
too. When Mark and I broke up and I came crying, I just did that to
know how you would react and with that I'll know that you love me
too. But I failed for you didn't give me any clue. when our prom
night came, you just don't know how happy I was when you handed
me the corsage and saying that I was the loveliest girl in the
whole world. While we were
dancing, I wanted so desperately to hear you say that you love me
too but you NEVER did. When Mark came and pleaded me to give him a
second chance, I was scared that you might see us talking. I
didn't want you to
get the wrong impression so i told him we would talk in the
garden. There I explained to him that it's you whom I really love.
What happened
next was that I found you missing and later learned that you were
searching for me, I just concluded that you saw us together.
The next day, I tried to explain but then you never gave me a chance to do so.
you continuously avoided me and never knew how much pain I've
experienced that time. I felt the world crushing on me. In our
Graduation day, when I approached you, I wanted to tell you how
much I love you but I decided that I just couldn't do it. I could
not bear to hear that all you feel for me is just brotherly hand of love. For
I want you to love me as a woman and not as a girl or playmate.
So I just turned away and left.
Now that saying I LOVE YOU might be too late, still I want you to
know that I will always love you and my heart has always been and will be yours alone.

P.S.

Think of me sometimes.... and always remember that loving you was the
best thing that ever happened in my life.

************************************

I felt my tears falling as I folded the letter. I wanted to shout
out to let her know that I love her, if not as much, but more than she
did for me. I love her more than anything in this world. I knelt
touching the soil of her grave and rain started to fall. I continued
crying softly and whispered, "Oh God, send my love to heaven."

this is painful really..sad one..nice post.....

at first i was planning to ignore and never read this because i thought i already did but this is just another derivation to a story i read in this thread also. well almost the same concept but a little different from the other. It just saddened me all the time!! :(

Bestfriends. Friends. Hmmmp. Its so hard to fall in love with a friend. Youre afraid of losing your friendship if you would tell her how much you love her. How much she means to you... <sigh>

a very nice story very touching kaya nga sabi nila kapag mahal mo ang isang tao dapat sabihin mo di ba :thanks:

very nice story thanks...

oh my what a touching story...:weep:

.such a great story.kaya kung mahal mo na isang tao,sabihin na kaagad.nice post po...yngatzzz...

really nice story. nice post!