i was on my first month when i found out about my pregnancy and i was so happy.. i was so excited and scared at the same time kasi i was never healthy.. asthmatic ako plus i have so many complications.. madalas akong pumasyal sa hospital kasi sakitin talaga ako and yung nutrients sa katawan ko ay hindi sapat para sakin, what more ngayong may kaagaw na ako. i know it will not be easy but i never thought pregnancy would be this hard on me.. a very stressful pregnancy indeed..
i'm on my 2nd month when i found out about my father's infidelity.. i was mad, gone ballistic.. threw everything away and cried as a banshee.. days after that incident, my sister out-law, who is a total ksp according to her brother, whom i've never met and never intend to, talked trash on me.. ang kapal ng mukha! spitting on my face that she never liked me and never will! the hell i care, she's one bitchy spoiled brat with a life good for nothing! and almost everyday, my hubby and i fight with almost everything that kept me crying for hours and sleeping with a broken heart.. wala na nga xa dito para i-comfort ako, hindi pa nya maiwasan na hindi makapagsalita ng makakasakit sakin.. alam naman nyang napakasensitive ng buntis plus on my condition right now, mas malala ako..
i'm on my 13th week when i got admitted to the hospital. nagle-labor ako on my 13th week! mahina daw ang kapit ng bata and yung nararamdaman ko na paninigas ng tummy ko at parang hinihila ang pusod ko sa loob ay yung baby na nalalaglag
it's so heart breaking that my baby is experiencing so much pain inside my womb.. i know, kasi i feel like crying whenever i feel the pain sa tummy ko. feels like, sinusundot ng kung anong matulis na bagay ang tummy ko or sometimes antigas tigas ng tummy ko at feeling ko any moment ay puputok sa sobrang tigas. also the cramping on my lower body part na para akong pinupulikat. most of the time ay hirap akong matulog dahil hindi ako komportable, at masakit talaga.
now, i'm on my 14th week and the pain never subsided.. mas lumalala pa ata habang lumalaki si baby
tinitiis ko lahat ng hirap for my baby kasi, gusto ko xang mabuhay.. kahit maghapon at magdamag akong nakahiga at hindi makalabas ng bahay. i just wish all the pain would be worth it paglabas ni baby.. na sana mabuhay xa and be healthy not like mommy