I've recently watched an anime about an arbiter who judged souls whether they'd be sent to the void or reincarnation, there's this one episode where he encountered a person who took her life. They went back to the living world so they can bare witness the agony she brought to the ones closest to her when she left. I wasn't really thinking about it until I was in the bathroom earlier today wanting to take my life. I want to give up, I am tired. I've been thinking of many ways to do it, ones that I've heard or read in the news before, some are quick and painless, some requires losing a lot of blood, I have more than 10 ways I guess which is in a snap could selfishly take away my loneliness.
But what will happen to a mother who lost a child? A father who lost a dreamer? A sister who lost a best friend? A brother who lost a buddy? Friends who lost an extended family? A dog who lost his everything?
I can't rest knowing that I have brought immeasurable pain to the people whom I know loves me. More than I think I deserve.
But what will happen to a mother who lost a child? A father who lost a dreamer? A sister who lost a best friend? A brother who lost a buddy? Friends who lost an extended family? A dog who lost his everything?
I can't rest knowing that I have brought immeasurable pain to the people whom I know loves me. More than I think I deserve.
