shareq lng...
ihave dis girl bestfrend
We knew each other since 2012
we are co workers
Nging close kme mga 2013 na when i was hired as regular sa workplace and sakto mgkska kme sa area.
so literally lgi kmeng mgksma kc ngkakataon n mgkashift kme lgi.We always go out.lging kme ung mgktbi and mgksma pg outing and out of town.Until such tym cgro na we developed feelings for each other.actually crushq na xa dti2 pa.
So years past..Without saying anything.ngkaroon kme ngnsarisariling relationship until such tym na mejo matglvakong nging single ulit and mejo na feelq na andun pa rin ung feelingsq for her.
Ayun.lalong napadalas pglabas namin nung 2016.after sometym ngtapat aq sa knya.dat i love her na ever since..pero d the sad part is my long term bf na xa nun..kaya ngaunq lng inamin kc nga dq n tlga mapigilan.So ayun.she told me dat she like me too.pero hnd nga pwede.tangaq dn kc bkt po pa sinabi eh.alamq namang taken na xa..so we decided to be bffs instead.pero for dis past 2yrs since dat day.we wer inseparable.na tipong wamt namin lgi kmeng mgksma sa lht ng bagay.and ilike it too.kaya ng effort aq n kht offq lgiq xang kameet.kc ngglit xa sakin pg dq xa namemeet.den dat moment came dat she said iloveyou tome.sobrang natuwa aq actually and sad at the same tym kc deep inside alamq naman na hnd tlga kme pwede..pero d next month..biglangng propose bf nia.so enaged na xa..wala akong kamalay malay actually.ilearned abt dat aweek aftr.d kc aq mxdo sa fb.eh nkpost na pala dun ung picture and video nila..my whole world started to crumble.ireally dont know how to react.nawalan naq ng pag asa...so aftr nun mejo ng li low naq sa lht..it really broke my heart..
Un ang naging uspan sa work areaq.and it hurts me evrytym na naoopen ung topic na un.pg nkktaq ung engagement ring nia.so to ease my mind i decided to take a leave.d aq ngpramdam sa knya.Napansin ata nya ung pgiwasq.and dat tym mejo dq na rin xa namemeet kc lging xa na ang ksma nia.den one tym she aproached me and asked me kung umiiwas ba daw aq.na d daw nia gusto ung namgyyri.na ang sakit daw na im ignoring her....dat she miss me na daw.andnarealize nia daw na tlgng mahal daw niaq tlgng sobrang mali lng ng tyming tlga nahnd n daw tlga xa makakawala sa situation kc kinausap n ng guy ung family nia abt dun and dey all agreed abt it na daw..we taked about our situation.and its really hard and complicated.we had the Love in the wrong tym sabi nga nila.sabi nga nia.bkt kc hnd pa daw aq nanligaw nung ngkakilala kme.iba daw ung lambing nia sakin.iba ung happiness pg ksma niaq.prng d xa nahihiyang gawin mga bagay2 pg ako ksma nia.and ganun dn naman nararamdamanq.so linunokq prideq .so d least i can do is be her bff.na kht masakit for me na samahan xa sa planning ng wedding nia dis past months..tiniisq.pra sa knya.pra sa natitirang pgsasamahan namin.and pra sakin.pra masanay naq sa sakit...pra pgdting ng big day.mgiging okay naq.matatanggapq na.dinaanq nlng lht aa biro ung mga bagay2.we even bought na ung dmit na ggmtinq sa wedding day nia.xa pumili ng dmit..and cnb nia wear dis huh.hahanapin kita sa church sa weddingq.and iknow ul be d most handsome guy dat ill see der.much much more dan my bf.a month before her wedding d na kme mxdong ngkkta and ngkausap.she was bc and dey wer always together n rin kc.kaya hinayaanq nlng.she just texted mea week before her wedding"be der pls,imissyou"
So her wedding day came.iwas really hesitant na pmnta.kc feelingq tlga hndq kakayanin.pero ayun i came to her wedding.and Sobramg sakit palang makita m ung taong mhl m na ikakasal na.ng flashback lht ng memories niotogether..gusto kong umiyak sa church.pero iwas wid our co workers.so dpt smile lng.ireally want to break down n lalo na nung nasa reception na..nung naririnig m na mga vows and words of love na cnsbi nia for her husband...nafeelq na dq n tlga kaya.kaya ngrason nlng aq sa mga coworkers namin na my imeemeet paq kaya mauuna naq.pero ng message naq sa knya nun before i go isaid na"im really sorry,dq na tlga kayang tapusin wedding m,ang. hirap pala .kalaq prepared naq.sobrang sakit pala pg nasa situation kna.im really sorry.dq n kc kayang pigilan sariliq.pero iknow uknow that iwant all d hapiness for you and cgro xa ang mkkpgbgay nun sau..not me.iwish you all d best and congrats on your wedding".
ever since dat day.evryday i cry.hnd naq makatulog..d naq makakain.sinabayan pa kc na nagkasakit aq kaya wala tpgng appetite..super sakit tlga.the worst part is dq na alam kung pano q n xa patutunguhan pgblik nia.ireally want na umiwas pero ayawq nmn xang mawala sa buhayq.
Sometimes love just aint enough tlga
pero cgro for her.il try to act normal nlng pgblik nia.na prng walang nangyri
ayun move on nlng alam kong gawin
d naman nging kme pero mas masakit pa to kesa sa previous heart breaks ko
ang malasq tlga..nakakadepress na.nakakawalan ng confidence sa sarili actually
thank mobilarian.just really need to let dis out.kc kme lang dalwa nakakaalam ng totoong situation naming dlawa.
sorrysobrang haba ata.sorry sa boring na storyq...