Chapter 1
Cade
If there’s anything I absolutely hate in this world its waiting. My lips are raw and most probably be bleeding by the time this is over.
My knee keeps bouncing up and down, my hands drumming my thighs. I get glares from the people seated beside me but I sure as hell don’t care what they think of me right now. If anyone’s going to say anything about it though, they may find themselves at the receiving end of my very sharp tongue. My mom used to say I need to draw back a bit on the pissy attitude but I guess I got more of her genes that she would have liked, she and I do not edit – at all. The women in my family were born without filters and it’s gotten me in more trouble than I could count.
I sighed heavily and looked at my watch for the hundredth time, it’s almost 3pm and that girl I talked to earlier is taking too fucking long for my liking.
The girl finally appeared from where the hell she came from – and took her freakin’ time – and looked us over, “Ms. Cadence Mendoza?”
“Here!” I stood up and brought my bag with me, she motioned me over to get in the room where she came from and asked me to sit. This looks like a freakin’ interrogation room and like a criminal; I knew I had to watch my words here like my life depends on it.
“Hello, Ms. Mendoza” she greeted me while sitting down.
“Hi.” I smiled, or tried to.
“I have here your test scores…” She smiled at me warmly, “you aced it. Our aptitude tests suggest you would do well in one of our Communications courses, Journalism perhaps?”
I suppressed a snort, “That sounds great, but I actually have set my eyes on something else.” I smiled.
She looked my documents over, “Ah. Musical Arts.”
I bit the inside of my cheek and hoped for the best.
She sighed and closed the folder containing all of my documents, references from my previous school, recommendations from my musical advisors, my essay on why I wanted to enroll here and all the other things I needed to get in. My heart is thumping in my chest, my ears are burning.
“You do know we only allow enrollees for the College of Music one year in advance for possible candidates?”
I couldn’t form words so I just nodded.
“We do this because our program only caters to specific schools first then we give a very limited opening to other schools because of how highly competitive our College of Music is.”
I nodded again and through some sort of sheer will power I was able to get out, “That’s why I wanted to enroll here.”
Getting into this school was a dream of mine; I worked so hard for so long all because I want to get into the best school there is. And getting into the best school means I get a bigger chance of actually making it – making music for the rest of my life. Unfortunately, fate had other plans for me – my final year in high school everything turned to shit. And just when I thought I put all of that behind me, here it comes biting me in the ass… again.
She sighed again, “But you are a year too late, all the slots are filled. We have a waiting list of a hundred students and I am telling you now that there are no exceptions to our policy.”
My eyes are stinging but I forced the tears down and just looked at the walls, the ceiling, anything but looking into her eyes. I think I’m gonna cry and I don’t cry, ever. Not anymore anyway.
“But…”
I looked over at her; she seems to be contemplating something. She bit her lip and moved her chair closer to the table, like she was going to tell me some big secret, “I’m not supposed to say this, but we really have a tough program, most students either back out or fail during their first year.”
Is she saying what I think she’s saying?
She smiled at me, “If you are willing, you can enroll to a different College first and we’ll see if anything opens up by the end of your first year.”
I’m not an idiot by any means, or gullible so I weighed my options. I don’t have a lot but still I needed to be careful how I handle this. I gnawed on my lip furiously as I thought about the possibility of this turning in my favor by the end of the year. If I don’t take this now I won’t have any chance with my 2nd or 3rd options – and seriously, this has been IT for me. I’ve never even glanced at any other College during my senior year. I was hell bent on enrolling here and now that I’m here and if there’s even the slightest chance that I can get in the Music program, I’ll take it. Convincing my mom will be a challenge but I think she’ll see it as I see it which is better than nothing.
Finally, I looked over to her and smiled – a real one this time, “I’ll do it.”
She grinned at me and offered her hand. I took it and she shook my hand as she said, “Welcome to Benedict College”.
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I remember it now it takes me back to when it all first started
But I only got myself to blame for it and I accept it now
It's time to let it all go, go out and start again
It's not that easy
But I've got high hopes
-Kodaline, High Hopes
Chapter 2
Rob
To say that I had a rough start in College is a pretty big understatement. Boy meets girl (and she’s an exceptionally special one at that), girl falls for boy, boy screws up, boy’s best friend swoops in and makes girl realize she can do so much better, girl leaves boy and falls for boy’s best friend. Makes for a fucking great story doesn’t it? Only I’m the villain in this narrative.
Yup, I was in love with my best friend’s girl, granted she was my girl first but with everything that happened I can’t blame Marley for choosing Chris over me.
We’re on our 3rd year of College and Marley and Chris have been dating for almost a year now. I should be happy and part of me is but sometimes when I look at them I still feel... something. It's not love for my best friend's girl but something close to longing. I can't help but think of the ‘What if's’.
Chris is completely over the fact that I used to date Marley though, after we talked about it and after we promised we won't let another girl come between us things began to get better. He trusts me enough that he sometimes asks me for favors like bringing Marley home when he can't. At first I felt as awkward as hell but Marley's the kind of girl you just can't help but like - she made me comfortable with her again. And bless her she really went out of her way to patch things up between Chris and me.
If you think about it, they really are perfect for each other. And here I am spending my free period at the coffee shop where she works at. It's fucking insane is what it is, I used to tell myself. But I really enjoy being around them, they're good people. And they can't help it if they found each other. I need to stop thinking about this.
Marley looks over at me funny, "Penny for your thoughts?"
I spaced out again. When I'm alone with her I do that a lot. She doesn't seem to notice though she never called me out on it.
I sighed, "Even if you offer me a million bucks I wouldn't tell you."
She pouted.
Fucking adorable.
"Your coffee's gone cold. Want me to heat it up for you?" She smiles at me.
"Nope, I'm good." I go back to reading.
"So..." here she goes.
I look up at her.
"...this Saturday?" She bites her bottom lip. She's been asking me to go with her and Chris on the Comic Con in the city, I already told her no but she's persistent. Chris makes her go to them every chance he gets and although she doesn't want to she goes anyway coz he likes them.
I sighed again for effect, "Marley, I told you I can't go. I have plans." I actually don't but I am not in the mood to be their third wheel. I feel bad for her though, she loves Chris but she's just not interested in his Comic book obsessions.
"Please, Rob. I really need you there. He's gonna go on and on about the Marvel and DC universes and I would have to pretend that I actually listen."
I laugh, "It's not that bad."
"You know I like the movies, I do. But the Comic books are too much. And he freakin’ quizzes me." She huffed and slouched on the chair, defeated. "I don't think I've ever passed those quizzes."
I looked at her, "Then tell him you don't want to go."
She shook her head, "I can't. He loves those things."
I shrugged, "Then suck it up."
She stood up and just shook her head, "You’re a big help.” Then wrinkled her nose at me, “Well then, I better get back to work."
I watched her leave, thinking how fucking lucky Chris is to have her.
I sighed and noticed the time, “Shit!”
I get to my car and floor it, the coffee shop is a couple of blocks from the school so I was close enough, and I ran to the building barely missing a couple of girls on my way there. Some even tried to stop me to chat but I just winked at them and continued running. It’d be safe to say that I’ve been over compensating with dating girl after girl, but sometimes I catch Marley looking at me with sad eyes like she knows what I’m doing, she’s never said anything about it though. Chris on the other hand talks to me about it, he tells me I need to find someone and just see where it would go. I laugh it off and tell him why date just one when I can date them all?
I don’t need to check the time coz I’m pretty sure I’m gonna be late to the class I’ve dropped twice before. I have to put in the work this year, I’ve been slacking and it shows. The classes I pass, I barely do and mom has been busting my balls about it, threatening to take back my car if I don’t get my shit together, and to top it all off I’ve got Prof. Diaz for my College Algebra and he loves me (Insert sarcasm here).
I ran up the stairs two at a time and when I got to the 4th floor and turned right I almost crashed into one of the biggest regrets of my life – Louise. She slowly dragged her eyes from my chest to the length of my body and I almost shivered. Allie was bad but she’s got nothing on Louise. I’m already freaking out just by standing in front of her.
“Hello, Rob.” She’s one of the prettiest girls I’ve ever dated but I’ve learned my lesson, a month is a long time to be dating the devil no matter how hot she is.
I put my hands on my hips and took a long breath, “Hi Lou.”
She put her hand on my chest and I fought the urge to cringe, “Where are you off to?”, then she looked behind me, “Not running from anyone I hope.” She smiled.
I looked behind me and shrugged, “Guess I lost them.”
She laughed.
I know her pretty well and I know avoiding her will trigger her possessive tendencies, so I play her little game sometimes just to get her off my back.
I’m really late for class now.
I smiled at her, “You look gorgeous as always, Louise.”
She winked at me, “Regret leaving me now?”
I put a hand over my heart, “Always. Although I still don’t think I’m good enough for you though.” I shrugged and grinned at her.
She’s contemplating something; I hope she buys my bullshit.
She flips her hair and walks around me, “Well, keep working on it. I might reconsider someday.”
I stare at her ass while she leaves me there – I’m a guy so sue me.
When she’s out of my sight I continue running.
Cade
If there’s anything I absolutely hate in this world its waiting. My lips are raw and most probably be bleeding by the time this is over.
My knee keeps bouncing up and down, my hands drumming my thighs. I get glares from the people seated beside me but I sure as hell don’t care what they think of me right now. If anyone’s going to say anything about it though, they may find themselves at the receiving end of my very sharp tongue. My mom used to say I need to draw back a bit on the pissy attitude but I guess I got more of her genes that she would have liked, she and I do not edit – at all. The women in my family were born without filters and it’s gotten me in more trouble than I could count.
I sighed heavily and looked at my watch for the hundredth time, it’s almost 3pm and that girl I talked to earlier is taking too fucking long for my liking.
The girl finally appeared from where the hell she came from – and took her freakin’ time – and looked us over, “Ms. Cadence Mendoza?”
“Here!” I stood up and brought my bag with me, she motioned me over to get in the room where she came from and asked me to sit. This looks like a freakin’ interrogation room and like a criminal; I knew I had to watch my words here like my life depends on it.
“Hello, Ms. Mendoza” she greeted me while sitting down.
“Hi.” I smiled, or tried to.
“I have here your test scores…” She smiled at me warmly, “you aced it. Our aptitude tests suggest you would do well in one of our Communications courses, Journalism perhaps?”
I suppressed a snort, “That sounds great, but I actually have set my eyes on something else.” I smiled.
She looked my documents over, “Ah. Musical Arts.”
I bit the inside of my cheek and hoped for the best.
She sighed and closed the folder containing all of my documents, references from my previous school, recommendations from my musical advisors, my essay on why I wanted to enroll here and all the other things I needed to get in. My heart is thumping in my chest, my ears are burning.
“You do know we only allow enrollees for the College of Music one year in advance for possible candidates?”
I couldn’t form words so I just nodded.
“We do this because our program only caters to specific schools first then we give a very limited opening to other schools because of how highly competitive our College of Music is.”
I nodded again and through some sort of sheer will power I was able to get out, “That’s why I wanted to enroll here.”
Getting into this school was a dream of mine; I worked so hard for so long all because I want to get into the best school there is. And getting into the best school means I get a bigger chance of actually making it – making music for the rest of my life. Unfortunately, fate had other plans for me – my final year in high school everything turned to shit. And just when I thought I put all of that behind me, here it comes biting me in the ass… again.
She sighed again, “But you are a year too late, all the slots are filled. We have a waiting list of a hundred students and I am telling you now that there are no exceptions to our policy.”
My eyes are stinging but I forced the tears down and just looked at the walls, the ceiling, anything but looking into her eyes. I think I’m gonna cry and I don’t cry, ever. Not anymore anyway.
“But…”
I looked over at her; she seems to be contemplating something. She bit her lip and moved her chair closer to the table, like she was going to tell me some big secret, “I’m not supposed to say this, but we really have a tough program, most students either back out or fail during their first year.”
Is she saying what I think she’s saying?
She smiled at me, “If you are willing, you can enroll to a different College first and we’ll see if anything opens up by the end of your first year.”
I’m not an idiot by any means, or gullible so I weighed my options. I don’t have a lot but still I needed to be careful how I handle this. I gnawed on my lip furiously as I thought about the possibility of this turning in my favor by the end of the year. If I don’t take this now I won’t have any chance with my 2nd or 3rd options – and seriously, this has been IT for me. I’ve never even glanced at any other College during my senior year. I was hell bent on enrolling here and now that I’m here and if there’s even the slightest chance that I can get in the Music program, I’ll take it. Convincing my mom will be a challenge but I think she’ll see it as I see it which is better than nothing.
Finally, I looked over to her and smiled – a real one this time, “I’ll do it.”
She grinned at me and offered her hand. I took it and she shook my hand as she said, “Welcome to Benedict College”.
- - - Updated - - -
I remember it now it takes me back to when it all first started
But I only got myself to blame for it and I accept it now
It's time to let it all go, go out and start again
It's not that easy
But I've got high hopes
-Kodaline, High Hopes
Chapter 2
Rob
To say that I had a rough start in College is a pretty big understatement. Boy meets girl (and she’s an exceptionally special one at that), girl falls for boy, boy screws up, boy’s best friend swoops in and makes girl realize she can do so much better, girl leaves boy and falls for boy’s best friend. Makes for a fucking great story doesn’t it? Only I’m the villain in this narrative.
Yup, I was in love with my best friend’s girl, granted she was my girl first but with everything that happened I can’t blame Marley for choosing Chris over me.
We’re on our 3rd year of College and Marley and Chris have been dating for almost a year now. I should be happy and part of me is but sometimes when I look at them I still feel... something. It's not love for my best friend's girl but something close to longing. I can't help but think of the ‘What if's’.
Chris is completely over the fact that I used to date Marley though, after we talked about it and after we promised we won't let another girl come between us things began to get better. He trusts me enough that he sometimes asks me for favors like bringing Marley home when he can't. At first I felt as awkward as hell but Marley's the kind of girl you just can't help but like - she made me comfortable with her again. And bless her she really went out of her way to patch things up between Chris and me.
If you think about it, they really are perfect for each other. And here I am spending my free period at the coffee shop where she works at. It's fucking insane is what it is, I used to tell myself. But I really enjoy being around them, they're good people. And they can't help it if they found each other. I need to stop thinking about this.
Marley looks over at me funny, "Penny for your thoughts?"
I spaced out again. When I'm alone with her I do that a lot. She doesn't seem to notice though she never called me out on it.
I sighed, "Even if you offer me a million bucks I wouldn't tell you."
She pouted.
Fucking adorable.
"Your coffee's gone cold. Want me to heat it up for you?" She smiles at me.
"Nope, I'm good." I go back to reading.
"So..." here she goes.
I look up at her.
"...this Saturday?" She bites her bottom lip. She's been asking me to go with her and Chris on the Comic Con in the city, I already told her no but she's persistent. Chris makes her go to them every chance he gets and although she doesn't want to she goes anyway coz he likes them.
I sighed again for effect, "Marley, I told you I can't go. I have plans." I actually don't but I am not in the mood to be their third wheel. I feel bad for her though, she loves Chris but she's just not interested in his Comic book obsessions.
"Please, Rob. I really need you there. He's gonna go on and on about the Marvel and DC universes and I would have to pretend that I actually listen."
I laugh, "It's not that bad."
"You know I like the movies, I do. But the Comic books are too much. And he freakin’ quizzes me." She huffed and slouched on the chair, defeated. "I don't think I've ever passed those quizzes."
I looked at her, "Then tell him you don't want to go."
She shook her head, "I can't. He loves those things."
I shrugged, "Then suck it up."
She stood up and just shook her head, "You’re a big help.” Then wrinkled her nose at me, “Well then, I better get back to work."
I watched her leave, thinking how fucking lucky Chris is to have her.
I sighed and noticed the time, “Shit!”
I get to my car and floor it, the coffee shop is a couple of blocks from the school so I was close enough, and I ran to the building barely missing a couple of girls on my way there. Some even tried to stop me to chat but I just winked at them and continued running. It’d be safe to say that I’ve been over compensating with dating girl after girl, but sometimes I catch Marley looking at me with sad eyes like she knows what I’m doing, she’s never said anything about it though. Chris on the other hand talks to me about it, he tells me I need to find someone and just see where it would go. I laugh it off and tell him why date just one when I can date them all?
I don’t need to check the time coz I’m pretty sure I’m gonna be late to the class I’ve dropped twice before. I have to put in the work this year, I’ve been slacking and it shows. The classes I pass, I barely do and mom has been busting my balls about it, threatening to take back my car if I don’t get my shit together, and to top it all off I’ve got Prof. Diaz for my College Algebra and he loves me (Insert sarcasm here).
I ran up the stairs two at a time and when I got to the 4th floor and turned right I almost crashed into one of the biggest regrets of my life – Louise. She slowly dragged her eyes from my chest to the length of my body and I almost shivered. Allie was bad but she’s got nothing on Louise. I’m already freaking out just by standing in front of her.
“Hello, Rob.” She’s one of the prettiest girls I’ve ever dated but I’ve learned my lesson, a month is a long time to be dating the devil no matter how hot she is.
I put my hands on my hips and took a long breath, “Hi Lou.”
She put her hand on my chest and I fought the urge to cringe, “Where are you off to?”, then she looked behind me, “Not running from anyone I hope.” She smiled.
I looked behind me and shrugged, “Guess I lost them.”
She laughed.
I know her pretty well and I know avoiding her will trigger her possessive tendencies, so I play her little game sometimes just to get her off my back.
I’m really late for class now.
I smiled at her, “You look gorgeous as always, Louise.”
She winked at me, “Regret leaving me now?”
I put a hand over my heart, “Always. Although I still don’t think I’m good enough for you though.” I shrugged and grinned at her.
She’s contemplating something; I hope she buys my bullshit.
She flips her hair and walks around me, “Well, keep working on it. I might reconsider someday.”
I stare at her ass while she leaves me there – I’m a guy so sue me.
When she’s out of my sight I continue running.